Genius and Lunacy

Friday, November 30, 2007

What I don't get.

Thursday, November 29, 2007

I have lamented what I lack
Let me be happy in what I have

1. Cozy room
2. Good food options
3. Some people that seem to like me- K, M, S, Kn, Mn, M, S, A, L, H, E, D, B, and others...
4. I have the freedom to do what I want for now
5. I have people that look up to me back home
6. I am getting to be a good influence on TILT
7. I am studying some interesting stuff
8. I'm not a failure in Greek- I might be doing bad, but it's okay
9. Amanda, Kate, and Luis- My little family up here
10. Snake and Ms. Kitty- Put them together and you'd have Goldie
11. My YMT- Kristen is great, the people in there are great potential friends, and Ryan is real fun to know
12. I now have an accountability partner
13. I am growing in friendship with CJ
14. I've had great visits home
15. I've got peaceful music to indwell
16. I'm alive by grace
17. Some people regard me well
18. I feel creative and am using that energy
19. I have some days to prepare for finals, then get to go home!
20. My family loves me
21. My struggle is not so hard right now.
22. God is still here? Yes.

I am blessed. I know. Now, that is. Usually I forget. Mmm... Hosea 6

Your Boy,
Evan Christopher

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Disconnected Days

Why is it that my life is so disconnected? I have my past life, my present life, and my future life. I have my real life and my fake, imagined lives. I have my University Scholars life and my LEAD life. I have my public life and my private life.
And chronologically, I have a disconnected life. One day I'll be eating healthy, loving others, spending time with God, and doing right. The next I'll be in a bad mood till 10:00. Why?
Is nothing consistent?
What can be consistent in my life?
- My schedule? Well, sometimes I have to do stuff to interfere with my schedule. Sometimes I just feel tired and can't meet certain requirements. Sometimes I don't have the desire. Of course, will must win...
- My values- Yes, but my values are determined by the situation. I mean, I won't one second be for abortion and the next be against it, but though I value both love and discipline, I must choose sometimes whether to step out and love a person or to work on homework.
- My faith- Once again, this is so affected by other things...

Ultimately, the only thing that doesn't change is my Lord. He is always there. Why can't I go to him? Because Satan takes the truth that He's always there and adds to it saying, "so you can go later".
Lord, help me find consistency. Let me follow you, not do a trek ala Family Circus that will eventually come 5 feet closer after two months. I want to grow in the me you've made me to be.

Your Boy,
Evan Christopher